It looks lovely!
Why are you freaking out? It doesn't hurt that much. It's just the first bit that hurts, but once you get used to it (after about 10 -15 seconds) it just feels like mild sunburn. I have 7 tattoo's, I wouldn't have so many if it hurt too much!!
I'm planning my next one...... a pumpkin on my left arm to even them up a little. I want one on my other shoulder too.... but I don't know what to get yet. It would have to match the other one in size and the top just creeps up over the top of my shoulder (you can't see it in the photo).
And the other problem is the money.... I can't afford it after my holiday.... I spent so much on stupid presents for people.